lah kok kebawa mimpi :(

kupikir sejak bakar jembatan, gak bakal keinget si aqua man lagi. lah demi, di mimpi kayak ngobrol.

“keliatannya you try your ass off to moving on from aqua man deh kak, dengan ngejar si polo shirt.

jadi mungkin, your subconscious mind benere masi mikirin aqua man.”

–mutek.

sounds make sense.

:(

yang penting komunikasi jalan gak chik?

in an ideal way, sama sama kagak jalan lo, to keep it real ya, sama sama enggak.

ideal way as means like 2 way of jalur pribadi communication.

jalan gak? kagak kan?

:(

“in letting go of me, i found my self in you.”

ulang tahun 23 tanggal 22 desember 2020, rampung kuliah.

ulang tahun 24 tanggal 22 desember 2021, 1st year of living as working lady.

ulang tahun 25 tanggal 22 desember 2022, 2nd year of living as working lady.

ulang tahun 26 tanggal 22 desember 2023, tahun pertama s2. so far destinasinya kalo gak belanda, australia, tapi kalo 2 tahun kerja dananya kurang memungkinkan, yauda, di fisip dulu aja. tetep sambil kerja.

tapi tbh, deep down, habis rampung kuliah pengennya volunteer life setahun keliling indonesia.

cari yang support dananya gak nyuci duit haram. so far udah ada 1 target. muternya bali–nusa tenggara–papua–maluku–sulawesi–kalimantan–sumatra–baru dah, bali jawa.

spent my life, for search of love.

you’re perfect love, has stole my heart.

panjang umur prinsip #jalanijalane.

empty spaces of my heart

in You i find the missing part.

Jesus Your love, makes me whole.

in you I’m found.

in sweet, surrender.

i’m found, me freedom.

in letting go of me,

i found my self in you.

jer bangsat lu.

kita kayak ngomong ama robot.

i think it will be better for us?

or for me at least,

fak, i’m mad.

for me to what jancok?!

awak uda mau kagak maki tapi dongkol banget ni ati bangsat.

dibawa tidur nyesek anjeng.

03.15 wib

okay, let’s keep things clear chik.

ngana, had a trauma.

okay?

so, you keep running away every time things getting seirous.

cukup dah terakir ngana ngerusak a chance to having a possibility of healthy(?), 1 frekuensi, bibit-bebet-bobot masyok, romantic relationship.

chik, it’s in the past already. kamu sama gio just having a crossing path. now you, dear young lady and young man, are having your own pace. different pace.

Jesus Christ, i know nothing, so please lead my way.

Empty Spaces of my heart

in You I found my missing part

Jesus Your Love makes me whole.

in You I found.

your not The Theo chik.

chill.

lay back.

you do you.

kalo jodoh, either aqua man, or polo shirt, yauda, kagak kemana.

#jalanijalane

“in letting go of me, i found my self in You.” — usi Tahalea.

dah de cukup, uda naik nih asem lambung. ya kalik mie sedap dobel jam segini.

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spent my life,

for search of love.

Your love has been,

there all alone.

“i’m Yours, Jesus i’m Yours.”

dear Lord, i know nothing, so please lead my way.

amen.